As the administrator of this site lies struggling for his life in the hospital today (And no, I am not exaggerating....if you want to tell him something now would be a good time to do that by Diner PM, or him drop a thank-you note.), I am just thinking back to how I came upon this site, and what kept me coming back in spite of all the "negative waves" I received from a lot of people in the beginning (including RE).
I don't know what happens now if RE bites the dust. I expect this site will fold, or at best become a dead site. I hope it stays up, and I will try to help with that. This site is RE's real monument, and not the fancy tombstone he's had so much fun creating (although I don't begrudge him the fun he's obviously had getting that silly thing made.)
But...what I wanted to do is take a survey, and ask for you to please vote, and more especially to comment in more detail, about when you became collapse aware. What made "the lights come on" for you? When was that? Where were you? Did it change your life at all?
I know exactly when the lights came on for me. It was when I read Ruppert's PO book at Christmas in 2010. Since then my outlook has changed radically and my way of life, if not radically, at least noticeably. I have not changed the world, nor was it ever my intention to do so. I'm primarily a selfish fuck whose interest is staying alive and maybe doing something to better the circumstances of my own somewhat spoiled (but still decent) kids and any children they might have. I came here after getting tired of the (mostly) alt.right commentariat on Jim Quinn's site The Burning Platform. It was RE's Diner proselytizing that did it. Advertising works, for better or worse.
RE has always said the lights came on for him when Lehman went belly-up in 2008.
So, when did the lights come on for you?
Nobody is irreplaceable. There are times I am sure the Diner would actually do better without me around. I am good at running off clientele as Surly has noted in the past. lol.
I am glad you guys will try to keep the Diner & SUN up and running for at least a while after I buy my ticket to the Great Beyond. I told Brian that some of the money I leave behind should be used to pay the Diner Bills. You guys will need to figure out how you pay ASO and the internet registrations. It's not hard.
I don't think I will die today now that what was making me deteriorate so fast was caught, at least the symptom of severe anemia if not what is causing it and the lack of appetite problem. We'll see if the scope turns up anything.
LONG LIVE THE DOOMSTEAD DINER!
RE
If you aren't bleeding internally, then the problem is that you aren't making enough RBC's. The things that cause that kind of anemia are all bad things. I hope they find a bleed and fix it.
The alternatives comprise a short list and they mostly end in -emia. Leukemia, aplastic anemia, Oh, lymphoma. That one doesn't rhyme.
Or it happens with cancer that metastasizes to your bone marrow. That's how my father went. Once your bone marrow quits, you're a dead man walking. Just sayin'. :)
Leukemia should have already been diagnosed from your blood work if you had had it, which you probably don't. You could have non-Hodgkins lymphoma. Blood work wouldn't show anything. As many scans as you've had surely they would have found any tumors. The premier symptom of lymphoma is enlarged lymph nodes. Dx is by needle biopsy.
No, I don't think today is your day, but I am quite worried. A diagnosis would be helpful.
If you aren't bleeding internally, then the problem is that you aren't making enough RBC's. The things that cause that kind of anemia are all bad things. I hope they find a bleed and fix it.Meh... for as long and as little as RE has been eating, my money is on simple iron/B12 deficiency as the cause of the anemia.
If you aren't bleeding internally, then the problem is that you aren't making enough RBC's. The things that cause that kind of anemia are all bad things. I hope they find a bleed and fix it.Meh... for as long and as little as RE has been eating, my money is on simple iron/B12 deficiency as the cause of the anemia.
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No so bad if you can just load the nutritious shit into a big syringe and squirt it past the pie hole. Better than dying of malnutrition.
Not too hard to imagine... when I was on chemo everything had a metallic taste. And made me sick to my stomach. And I was losing about 5 pounds a week. I was forcing myself to eat because they were threatening to put one of those feeding tubes in me. My saving grace was knowing that the chemo would stop and things would eventually get better -- although I had no idea just how long it would take. My chemo ran from end of April to beginning of June, stuff didn't start tasting good until October. And nothing is quite the same as before.If you aren't bleeding internally, then the problem is that you aren't making enough RBC's. The things that cause that kind of anemia are all bad things. I hope they find a bleed and fix it.Meh... for as long and as little as RE has been eating, my money is on simple iron/B12 deficiency as the cause of the anemia.
There is no doubt the poor nutrition over the last year was a major factor in producing the anemia. What remains an unanswered question is what is causing the lack of appetite and disgust with anything I actually do shove down my pie hole? Imagine you had the prospect of having to eat shit every day for the rest of your life to stay alive. Would you do it? Right now I am forcing down whaever they put in front of me because I wouldn't get out of here if I don't eat. But it all tastes like literal shit to me.
It's been a gradual awakening, to be sure.
It began in the late 80s when I worked with Greenpeace on the criminal practices of Waste Management; then went to work on radioactive waste issues with an organization called Don't Waste US; began reading Matt Savinar's forum Life After the Oil Crash, Matt Simmons, Michael Ruppert's website From the Wilderness and his eye-opening book Crossing the Rubicon, John Pilger, Bruce Gagnon and The Global Network Against Weapons & Nuclear Power in Space, Noam Chomsky, Chris Hedges @ truthdig, the Organic Consumers Association (and its expose of the food industry's control over what we eat), and most importantly, the World Socialist Web Site ... reading, reading, reading ... and watching, i.e., films on Vietnam, Salvador, Ukraine, Syria, this country's relentless bombing, invading, destroying country after country, overthrowing governments, etc etc etc.
It's been a 30-year study of social inequality, the pursuit of escalating wars, the struggles of the working class, the silencing and vilification of whistleblowers (Assange/Snowden etc.), Wall Street's financial fraud, and so much more.
Well, you get the picture.
It's not a wonder that the ruling class is censoring the Internet.
It's been a gradual awakening, to be sure.
It began in the late 80s when I worked with Greenpeace on the criminal practices of Waste Management; then went to work on radioactive waste issues with an organization called Don't Waste US; began reading Matt Savinar's forum Life After the Oil Crash, Matt Simmons, Michael Ruppert's website From the Wilderness and his eye-opening book Crossing the Rubicon, John Pilger, Bruce Gagnon and The Global Network Against Weapons & Nuclear Power in Space, Noam Chomsky, Chris Hedges @ truthdig, Guy McPherson and Climate Change, the Organic Consumers Association (and its expose of the food industry's control over what we eat), and most importantly, the World Socialist Web Site ... reading, reading, reading ... and watching, i.e., films on Vietnam, Salvador, Ukraine, Syria, this country's relentless bombing, invading, destroying country after country, overthrowing governments, etc etc etc.
It's been a 30-year study of social inequality, the pursuit of escalating wars, the struggles of the working class, the silencing and vilification of whistleblowers (Assange/Snowden etc.), Wall Street's financial fraud, and so much more.
Well, you get the picture.
It's not a wonder that the ruling class is censoring the Internet.
It's been a gradual awakening, to be sure.
It began in the late 80s when I worked with Greenpeace on the criminal practices of Waste Management; then went to work on radioactive waste issues with an organization called Don't Waste US; began reading Matt Savinar's forum Life After the Oil Crash, Matt Simmons, Michael Ruppert's website From the Wilderness and his eye-opening book Crossing the Rubicon, John Pilger, Bruce Gagnon and The Global Network Against Weapons & Nuclear Power in Space, Noam Chomsky, Chris Hedges @ truthdig, Guy McPherson and Climate Change, the Organic Consumers Association (and its expose of the food industry's control over what we eat), and most importantly, the World Socialist Web Site ... reading, reading, reading ... and watching, i.e., films on Vietnam, Salvador, Ukraine, Syria, this country's relentless bombing, invading, destroying country after country, overthrowing governments, etc etc etc.
It's been a 30-year study of social inequality, the pursuit of escalating wars, the struggles of the working class, the silencing and vilification of whistleblowers (Assange/Snowden etc.), Wall Street's financial fraud, and so much more.
Well, you get the picture.
It's not a wonder that the ruling class is censoring the Internet.
I first became aware less than two months ago on September 13th, 2019 (yes Friday the 13th, what a coincidence right?). I'm in my last year of university up in Ontario, Canada, and this news blew me out of the water.
I found out through George Mobus' Question Everything. For a few weeks I cycled between "Wow this sucks" and "This is just a bad dream". I went through (and am still processing now) some of the stages of grief, as this knowledge has taken away most of what would have been my life plans. I was planning on investing in index funds ("The market has been growing since the 1800's, why would it stop now?" I used to say), living frugally, and retiring early. Then I was going to start a family.
I no longer plan on having a family, and my money is no longer in the stock market. Things are still very much up in the air for me. For now I am focusing on finishing my degree and enjoying each day as much as possible. I am glad to have found so many people who see what I now see. I sometimes feel crazy when I go about my business and see everyone just relaxing as if all this was going to continue indefinitely. So this is comforting to have a group to chat with, even if it is through a screen. All the best.
I first became aware less than two months ago on September 13th, 2019 (yes Friday the 13th, what a coincidence right?). I'm in my last year of university up in Ontario, Canada, and this news blew me out of the water.
I found out through George Mobus' Question Everything. For a few weeks I cycled between "Wow this sucks" and "This is just a bad dream". I went through (and am still processing now) some of the stages of grief, as this knowledge has taken away most of what would have been my life plans. I was planning on investing in index funds ("The market has been growing since the 1800's, why would it stop now?" I used to say), living frugally, and retiring early. Then I was going to start a family.
I no longer plan on having a family, and my money is no longer in the stock market. Things are still very much up in the air for me. For now I am focusing on finishing my degree and enjoying each day as much as possible. I am glad to have found so many people who see what I now see. I sometimes feel crazy when I go about my business and see everyone just relaxing as if all this was going to continue indefinitely. So this is comforting to have a group to chat with, even if it is through a screen. All the best.
I first became aware less than two months ago on September 13th, 2019 (yes Friday the 13th, what a coincidence right?). I'm in my last year of university up in Ontario, Canada, and this news blew me out of the water.hi cam,
I found out through George Mobus' Question Everything. For a few weeks I cycled between "Wow this sucks" and "This is just a bad dream". I went through (and am still processing now) some of the stages of grief, as this knowledge has taken away most of what would have been my life plans. I was planning on investing in index funds ("The market has been growing since the 1800's, why would it stop now?" I used to say), living frugally, and retiring early. Then I was going to start a family.
I no longer plan on having a family, and my money is no longer in the stock market. Things are still very much up in the air for me. For now I am focusing on finishing my degree and enjoying each day as much as possible. I am glad to have found so many people who see what I now see. I sometimes feel crazy when I go about my business and see everyone just relaxing as if all this was going to continue indefinitely. So this is comforting to have a group to chat with, even if it is through a screen. All the best.
I first became aware less than two months ago on September 13th, 2019 (yes Friday the 13th, what a coincidence right?). I'm in my last year of university up in Ontario, Canada, and this news blew me out of the water.hi cam,
I found out through George Mobus' Question Everything. For a few weeks I cycled between "Wow this sucks" and "This is just a bad dream". I went through (and am still processing now) some of the stages of grief, as this knowledge has taken away most of what would have been my life plans. I was planning on investing in index funds ("The market has been growing since the 1800's, why would it stop now?" I used to say), living frugally, and retiring early. Then I was going to start a family.
I no longer plan on having a family, and my money is no longer in the stock market. Things are still very much up in the air for me. For now I am focusing on finishing my degree and enjoying each day as much as possible. I am glad to have found so many people who see what I now see. I sometimes feel crazy when I go about my business and see everyone just relaxing as if all this was going to continue indefinitely. So this is comforting to have a group to chat with, even if it is through a screen. All the best.
On finances there is plenty to "invest" in that has nothing to do with markets and convention. I like Nicole Foss myself when it comes to money... She seems pretty much out of the game at this point but I saw her speak a few times and it affected me.in brief:
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Avoid all debt if possible. Repay it as fast as possible even if there are so many voices around you telling you to invest in the market while carrying it... crazy
2 accumulate a financial nest egg of a minimum of 6 months of your total expenses.
3 Invest in food. Personally I prefer a revolving pantry of things I already eat just much more of them then most folks.
4 have a reserve of cash whether that is part of your nest egg or not is your call
5 invest in yourself activities that will be of use in a changed world. Good gear to do those activities.
6 cultivate the relationships with the type of people you want to become. Friendships are hard work at first if the person is of worth. Easy friendships dont challenge you to grow.
Boy that was pretty preachy...
Cheers...
I first became aware less than two months ago on September 13th, 2019 (yes Friday the 13th, what a coincidence right?). I'm in my last year of university up in Ontario, Canada, and this news blew me out of the water.Another Ontario person... I Just noticed...
I found out through George Mobus' Question Everything. For a few weeks I cycled between "Wow this sucks" and "This is just a bad dream". I went through (and am still processing now) some of the stages of grief, as this knowledge has taken away most of what would have been my life plans. I was planning on investing in index funds ("The market has been growing since the 1800's, why would it stop now?" I used to say), living frugally, and retiring early. Then I was going to start a family.
I no longer plan on having a family, and my money is no longer in the stock market. Things are still very much up in the air for me. For now I am focusing on finishing my degree and enjoying each day as much as possible. I am glad to have found so many people who see what I now see. I sometimes feel crazy when I go about my business and see everyone just relaxing as if all this was going to continue indefinitely. So this is comforting to have a group to chat with, even if it is through a screen. All the best.
I first became aware less than two months ago on September 13th, 2019 (yes Friday the 13th, what a coincidence right?). I'm in my last year of university up in Ontario, Canada, and this news blew me out of the water.Another Ontario person... I Just noticed...
I found out through George Mobus' Question Everything. For a few weeks I cycled between "Wow this sucks" and "This is just a bad dream". I went through (and am still processing now) some of the stages of grief, as this knowledge has taken away most of what would have been my life plans. I was planning on investing in index funds ("The market has been growing since the 1800's, why would it stop now?" I used to say), living frugally, and retiring early. Then I was going to start a family.
I no longer plan on having a family, and my money is no longer in the stock market. Things are still very much up in the air for me. For now I am focusing on finishing my degree and enjoying each day as much as possible. I am glad to have found so many people who see what I now see. I sometimes feel crazy when I go about my business and see everyone just relaxing as if all this was going to continue indefinitely. So this is comforting to have a group to chat with, even if it is through a screen. All the best.
@Surly1 Thanks for the support. It is crazy to me how many warnings we've ignored so far! The Limits to Growth in 1972, The World Scientists' Warning to Humanity in 1992, another letter in 2017 signed by 15,000 scientists around the world, and ‘World Scientists’ Warning of a Climate Emergency’ right here in 2019 signed by 11,000 scientists. It's wild to me what we're willing to ignore to continue growing. Also I like that comic. Sad but also makes me chuckle.
@RE I think I found it on George's blog roll. Glad I did! And thank you for the tips, I will keep these in mind :)
@Nearingsfault Thank you for all these ideas. I will definitely be learning from Nicole Foss over Christmas break (school is real busy right now and I can't afford many distractions). As far as Ontarians go, are there a lot of us in the Diner?